Transition is hard.
Give it a few weeks. Maybe more.
In all honesty, this past transition has been the hardest for me. Harder then leaving home the first time at age nineteen, harder than selling everything we owned and flying 4,000 miles into the unknown. Just hard.
However, I know in the "hard time", this is exactly where God has called us, and I can be sure that he will always send encouragement when I need it most. (and he did)
Why has it been hard? Well, a few reasons. We are finally settling in a place and for whatever reason, with that comes pressure. Man-made pressure, its silly really. We haven't lived in the same place for more than 3 months in the past year. Settling in means new friends, new community, new doctors, new grocery stores, and to top it off, we dont even have a vehicle here yet. So that means borrowing cars and carting carseats to and from. (praise the Lord its on its way!)
Things have finally started to feel like home, the way I expected it to feel all along. Why did I feel so alone living in an amazing community full of people eager to love on us? Well, because isolating yourself will actually suffocate you. Reach out, make friends, be a friend. When my focus is no longer on myself or my feelings, suddenly the world is a much better place, suddenly life is actually pretty amazing.
We need to give ourselves GRACE. We are a "hit the ground and start running" type of family. Its how we've always lived. However, in this season we really believe God has called us to rest. To enjoy our family, to send immense time with our community. To really dive in to the things he has called us to, but that doesn't mean we have to strive for it.
Grace to slow down. Grace to get acclimated to our surroundings. Grace to realize our children acting up is totally normal. Grace to make new friends and figure out how to navigate the old.
The struggle is real, and you can talk about it. You're not the first one to feel this way and you won't be the last. Society has shaped us to to make sure we look like we have it all together. Make sure our homes are "post worthy", make sure you convey that your marriage is perfect, that your children never act up. Well guess what? its a lie. A lie to make you feel secluded and alone, you're not.
I encourage you, if you are in a season of transition, give yourself grace. If you feel God has called you to a season of rest, do it unashamedly. I can guarantee there are countless people in the same season as you, feeling the same things you are, and its about time we start talking to each other about it.
I'd love to hear from you!